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Hello, I'm in Delaware he spoke, his voice like static velvet in her ear, she pressed the phone closer to hear his breathing Forgive me, my love, I'll be comin' home soon. The road has be bitter and cold, I feel faithless, hopeless, there is a constant knot in my stomach. She knew his voice off by heart, she breathed in deep as the pitter-patter inside her raced to the sound of the man she'd been missing for so long. She was left feeling so low while he was away, this sudden injury to her heart, it ached while he was away. Sam Malone, you better get back quick. Sometimes I wish you didn't have to spend so much time out there when you could be in here with me. You'll be the death of me someday. All this waiting, day in and day out, you'll end up putting my body in a box. Her voice broke on her last word. She looked around at her empty house, there were no sounds but the furnace turning on and shutting off. She kept wasting time sitting by the window waiting for Sam to return. I wish I could be with you, as much as I ever could, I wish that. The urgency I feel inside when I think about being with you- it's like nothing else. The grace I feel when I see you. You make me feel like a man. The smile on his face could be felt through the phone. Her lips parted I don't need to know what makes a man, I just need to know how come your arms are not around me. I feel like this goes against the grain, against what we should be. The sun was slowly setting over the mountains, the world was becoming dark. The familiar pain in her sensible heart returned, the ache slowly seeped throughout her body, her eyes began to water. He could hear her tears, he could feel them though he was far away. His girl, the girl for him was in pain because he was not there. I'll be home by dawn, when the city is colourful again. I have a gift, you'll forgive this day old hate you feel inside, like knives it will slice you deep. I promise you. The tears ran dry, her sleeve wiped the stray ones on her cheek. One more sleep and he'd be home, she wouldn't let her sleeping sickness get in the way. She'd lay there and fight it. I love you she whispered so faintly. And I you, my love. His words were the comfort she needed to make it through the night.

The light trickled in through the opaque curtains, she rubbed her eyes as she looked at the clock. She rolled to her other side and he was there, smiling so brightly it competed with the sun. In between them a cd with the words Casey's song written in thick black marker. She leaped towards him and kissed him on the lips, grabbed the cd and ran towards the player. When she quickly jumped back into bed by his side her heart continued to race while she waited. The sun filled room was silent, she heard guitar as the song began to play.